The Norway Cake

Okay so today was a rough day. I'm learning how to eat better. I should have known it would have been a rough day as I flew out of the house this morning finishing up the cream cheese on celery.  I'm so afraid that life will find me without "my food" on one of my scheduled times to eat. I eat every two hours. Today was a day with the family, which means I was brought into a Norwegian Cake Shop in Ballard. Its the best. Its a trip my family takes out there just to get these special treats. Its challenging to learn the most honorable traditions cause me to put stuff in my body that simply isn't good for me.

I have been working on eating better since March 3, 2012. I have lost 9 pounds so far. My biggest hurdle is thinking I'm not capable of losing the weight and I will fail eventually. So even this experience caused me to walk into a shop where there is nothing good for me and walk out with just my water bottle. Next on the Agenda was a hamburger joint. It is the best hamburger joint in Seattle, I felt obligated to eat. Yet I was saved by my family not having the right form of payment.

 I love my family, dearly. I'm finally at the turning place in my life where 350 as a my weight simply isn't okay.  I don't want to be this person, physically. I don't want to eat like its a activity. I want to learn what it feels like to be healthy. I have never been a healthy weight....well except when I was new born I suppose.

My night ended with me cutting a delicious cake for my family and not partaking in it. I was in tears and had to make a couple of calls. Don't worry, I told myself the excuses: You deserve it, you have lost 9 pounds, you haven't had any cheat days.  The main reason why I don't give myself a cheat day is because I want to be healthy. Lets face it those sugary and salty snacks aren't good for my body's function. When I eat fish and vegetables my body needs that and uses that and isn't that what I'm eating for?

It took alot of encouraging and bible quoting today to realize, yes that is what I'm eating for and I can do this! With that I'm going to walk myself to the gym and use the nutrients and I have given myself today.

The misery that can be lossed

Wow, 2010 was my last entry that is just frightening. I think I just stopped cause my dreams got lost in the surgery room.  It has been a rough couple of years for sure. I really wanted this to a place where I write down my battle with learning how to eat better and use my muscles!

One month ago income tax came in so I have a super cute hair cut and joined a boot camp. I weigh in at 353 lbs. The biggest I have ever been. In just three weeks I have lost 9lbs bringing me to 342lbs. I can feel the difference for sure. I'm learning how to think more positive about myself and negative about the Twinkies in the cupboard.  I can climb the stairs and still breath once I'm done. I haven't quite got hiking down but I know I will get there.

I think I'm going to keep this blog short for now, I'm hoping to write all the minus and pluses as the days goes one. For now, all I know is I don't want to the big person who has to order their clothes on line cause they are just simply too big. Life is simply too short to be unhealthy and not get the maximum experience that God has intended it for.