The Norway Cake

Okay so today was a rough day. I'm learning how to eat better. I should have known it would have been a rough day as I flew out of the house this morning finishing up the cream cheese on celery.  I'm so afraid that life will find me without "my food" on one of my scheduled times to eat. I eat every two hours. Today was a day with the family, which means I was brought into a Norwegian Cake Shop in Ballard. Its the best. Its a trip my family takes out there just to get these special treats. Its challenging to learn the most honorable traditions cause me to put stuff in my body that simply isn't good for me.

I have been working on eating better since March 3, 2012. I have lost 9 pounds so far. My biggest hurdle is thinking I'm not capable of losing the weight and I will fail eventually. So even this experience caused me to walk into a shop where there is nothing good for me and walk out with just my water bottle. Next on the Agenda was a hamburger joint. It is the best hamburger joint in Seattle, I felt obligated to eat. Yet I was saved by my family not having the right form of payment.

 I love my family, dearly. I'm finally at the turning place in my life where 350 as a my weight simply isn't okay.  I don't want to be this person, physically. I don't want to eat like its a activity. I want to learn what it feels like to be healthy. I have never been a healthy weight....well except when I was new born I suppose.

My night ended with me cutting a delicious cake for my family and not partaking in it. I was in tears and had to make a couple of calls. Don't worry, I told myself the excuses: You deserve it, you have lost 9 pounds, you haven't had any cheat days.  The main reason why I don't give myself a cheat day is because I want to be healthy. Lets face it those sugary and salty snacks aren't good for my body's function. When I eat fish and vegetables my body needs that and uses that and isn't that what I'm eating for?

It took alot of encouraging and bible quoting today to realize, yes that is what I'm eating for and I can do this! With that I'm going to walk myself to the gym and use the nutrients and I have given myself today.

The beginning of something great

I'm new to blogging, writing, and following that small voice that encourges to me to dream. I'm a sister, daughter, auntie, an ex girlfriend, a follower, job seeker, and a friend. I long to drop my tittles and just be me. I haven't quite figured it out.

I have made some smart choices; but, a lot of choices I have regreted too. I lose my cellphone, wallet, and my id. I forget to call those I love and continue to be bothered by my enemy's.

This is my spot in the world where I invite other women to set aside there many tittles and realize that we can be good friends or not just the strange women sitting across the room. I encourage you to write and respond about what happens when your favorite song comes on or when you realize how amazing you are.

With that being said, I'm amazing. I have the ability to take care of others, hold a conversation, and cook dinner. How many people can do that? I'm 29 and I still believe that something amazing can come of my life. It is truly never too late to grow up! Thank heaven for that!

To the women who is 65 and attends classes or the women that places dreams on hold for a band new baby......props to us! We are amazing!