Okay, so its every girl dream to become successful. Have the man that as my mother put it, "Worships the ground you walk on". Have the career where they can't live without you cause you are that good at your job. Kids that aren't hard to take care of. No resentments or past failures.
Am I the only one with this thought?
For my own sake, I hope not! Today I'm finding myself feeling terrified of being capable, confident and optimisic about my future. I'm used to failing. It is a very comforting feeling.
To be a women and admit my failures I think takes alot of guts. I have screwed up friendships, pushed good meaning men away, and not trusted family. I have not lived up to my dream adulthood and quite frankly I have done a damn good job of screing it up. They say to be single in your 20s so you can live. What am I living for....another dead in job. More people that don't like me when I stop going to the parties. I think you need to be single in your 30s so you can figure out who you are.
Now at 29 I'm challenging myself to become a women who knows she is capable of making her dreams a reality. I want to write. I want people to read my writing and it to touch their lives in a way that encourges them to be someting different not just another joe walking down the street. I want a job where I meet new people, can spend time with family and impact my community in a postive way. People are precious even the old guy driving in front of you.
My name is Gabrielle and I'm worth getting to know. My dreams aren't meant to stay in my head. Its never too late to start over; even at 29.
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if you haven't read it already, Who Moved My Cheese is an excellent book, as well as Raving Fans. In reading your blogs those titles hit me as something you might like. If your not working, I personally recommend finding somewhere to volunteer. While i spent some time on the unemployment list this winter, I spend a lot of time volunteering at my local library. They also say that putting in volunteer time shows future employers that you want to be out there doing something, plus it makes you feel good about yourself and you help others. May not work for you, but was very helpful for me! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the idea! I have thought about it....I guess I just thought that if they didn't see me working that would be a bad thing. I'm also a big fan of tips....I will check out the book.
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